I suppose it wouldn't be a blog if I didn't post my losses as well as winnings.
Well after nearly getting back my £1700 bookie losses I played far too much poker and I feel like I have lost my mojo. I am playing weak, passive and I am just being bullied to fuck. Even when I do get a great hand and get it in ahead I am losing which makes it even worse for me.
I went to Switzerland to watch Liverpool, amazing trip one of my best and funniest so far. Was in Geneva for half a day and what a place! Amazing, clean, beautiful, lovely beach and the women there 90% of them were 12 out of 10s absolutely stunning.
That gave me 4 days off I played on Saturday lost a bit more so will not play till at least Wed now and try and sort my head out because I am not playing right. Even the awful fish with -45% roi are owning me right now.
So I have done back about $2500 which has put a lovely dent in my profits for the month. I have no idea where I am now because sharkscope stopped working for my great run and as soon as my bad run started they were tracking games again - typical.
One thing that has fucked my head was I was flying and didn't think I could lose any game I played, the next day Fulltilt done an update and I couldn't win fuck all. Funny how these paranoid thoughts come into your mind during a bad run but at this very point in time I just don't think something is right. I think since the update I have only won about 3 all ins in god knows how many games with PP v overs and overs v PP. Also things like you will raise with a PP and it will come a high flop, or raise with AK, AQ, AJ, KQ, KJ and it will come all low cards, really frustrating at the moment.
Anyway hopefully it will turn soon, I fucking need it to with Florida rapidly approaching.
Sunday 19 July 2009
Saturday 11 July 2009
Quick update
Half way there, $1500 more to go and I have recouped my money. Reached my daily target today and didn't count the rakeback as profit. Won another $750 on top to go to my recouping fund so now just $1500 before Tuesday and my head will be fine!
Got my car back today, £330 it cost to fix :( cost me a fortune since I have had it. Oh well at least I have my freedom back. So sick I wasted that money gambling, I am $5500 up on poker this month already and wasted so much of it on that donkey session.
What the past 2 days have shown me however that if I put the hours in I can make a serious amount of money from this. When I get to Florida and I have all day to spare I am going to kill it I hope!
Got my car back today, £330 it cost to fix :( cost me a fortune since I have had it. Oh well at least I have my freedom back. So sick I wasted that money gambling, I am $5500 up on poker this month already and wasted so much of it on that donkey session.
What the past 2 days have shown me however that if I put the hours in I can make a serious amount of money from this. When I get to Florida and I have all day to spare I am going to kill it I hope!
Friday 10 July 2009
I'm an addict idiot
Went the bank today to put £1700 in, my mate gave me a lift because my car is in the garage, anyway instead of just stopping outside the bank and waiting he comes up with the bright idea of parking and walking about for a bit. As soon as we got to the street with the bank in he says he's going to the bookies. He had been wanting to go all day it seems, fucking stupid thing to say knowing I have £1700 in my hand. Anyway so we go in, 5 hours later come out no money. oooooops
After such a great day on the poker as well.
Started -500 from early morning so quickly got back level and won $250 more. Went out and done that. Come back and won $700 more so basically I have to win $2300 more on top of my daily targets to recoup stupid horse losses. I hope to do it over the next few days, hopefully before Switzerland so I wont be pissed off thinking about it. I am hoping to win it back in the next 3/4 days as I am going to sit in and not leave this laptop till I do. Well I might play golf on Sunday and pick up my car yessssssssssssss tomorrow but apart from that I am going to fucking hammer the poker. Hopefully a decent bit of rakeback will be produced also.
Speaking of which is rakeback day tomorrow. Not sure what to class it as now, usually I class it as winnings so goes on top of my daily target but not sure if I should count it towards my losses or not. No fuck it I will win the losses outright and not dip into that money trying to make up for it, must learn from my mistakes.
I guess it's the gambler mentality in me that helps me play poker anyway, after reading part of some poker book recently I have also now become ultra aggressive and it really is tilting everyone I play into mistakes.
I am up over $4000 so far this month on poker but down £1700 on gambling which nearly enough takes most of that away, but I will get it back you bookie fuckers just you watch!
After such a great day on the poker as well.
Started -500 from early morning so quickly got back level and won $250 more. Went out and done that. Come back and won $700 more so basically I have to win $2300 more on top of my daily targets to recoup stupid horse losses. I hope to do it over the next few days, hopefully before Switzerland so I wont be pissed off thinking about it. I am hoping to win it back in the next 3/4 days as I am going to sit in and not leave this laptop till I do. Well I might play golf on Sunday and pick up my car yessssssssssssss tomorrow but apart from that I am going to fucking hammer the poker. Hopefully a decent bit of rakeback will be produced also.
Speaking of which is rakeback day tomorrow. Not sure what to class it as now, usually I class it as winnings so goes on top of my daily target but not sure if I should count it towards my losses or not. No fuck it I will win the losses outright and not dip into that money trying to make up for it, must learn from my mistakes.
I guess it's the gambler mentality in me that helps me play poker anyway, after reading part of some poker book recently I have also now become ultra aggressive and it really is tilting everyone I play into mistakes.
I am up over $4000 so far this month on poker but down £1700 on gambling which nearly enough takes most of that away, but I will get it back you bookie fuckers just you watch!
Wednesday 8 July 2009
Drunkard
Was drunk as fuck last night, went out for a meal with my mate, we had a bottle of wine each then went to a bar for a few cocktails eventually I got home and thought it would be a good idea to start drinking Gin Martini's a good few hours later I was absolutely rotten and woke up this morning feeling very sorry for myself.
Couldnt even bare to look at my laptop to play some poker, so went out and had a round of golf. Threw a bet on whilst waiting for my mate and that won so paid for my 2 mates on the golf played great until the last 2 holes :( and came home and went to sleep having made a days wage from my bet anyway haha. Woke up had a take away and got on the poker went down 300 very quickly, got it back and eventually ended up $260 up and stopped. Very happy just to be up that because this hangover stinks.
I am $3000 up this month so far so still on target for my $10k monthly wage. At the end of this month I am hoping to have the villa and car rental paid for and most of my credit card cleared and then I will move up stakes on Fulltilt. Well unlock the $200 games anyway because there will be less pressure on me then.
My plan for when I get to Florida is to build up a roll of around $4/5k and then leave that in there so I can play fish at higher stakes when they sit if I can reach this then my monthly targets should be a hell of a lot higher considering I will be playing poker non stop whilst over there so daily targets wont exist and higher stakes.
If I can achieve this I am very likely to buy a house out there, however I am debating whether or not to go to Thailand just after I get back and see what I get for my money there and how they live because if I can get a nice chunk of land out there and get an amazing house built for virtually the same if not less then I may move out there instead. Also depends on how stable the internet is.
Anyway's 3:50am now and trying my best to get some sleep which is why I am on here chatting shit :) Hopefully up earlier tomorrow, a quick day on the poker and then see what the weather is like for golf.
Oh and I want my fucking car back you bastards, over 2 weeks now no car. When I get it back its getting part exchanged for a nice reliable German car!
Couldnt even bare to look at my laptop to play some poker, so went out and had a round of golf. Threw a bet on whilst waiting for my mate and that won so paid for my 2 mates on the golf played great until the last 2 holes :( and came home and went to sleep having made a days wage from my bet anyway haha. Woke up had a take away and got on the poker went down 300 very quickly, got it back and eventually ended up $260 up and stopped. Very happy just to be up that because this hangover stinks.
I am $3000 up this month so far so still on target for my $10k monthly wage. At the end of this month I am hoping to have the villa and car rental paid for and most of my credit card cleared and then I will move up stakes on Fulltilt. Well unlock the $200 games anyway because there will be less pressure on me then.
My plan for when I get to Florida is to build up a roll of around $4/5k and then leave that in there so I can play fish at higher stakes when they sit if I can reach this then my monthly targets should be a hell of a lot higher considering I will be playing poker non stop whilst over there so daily targets wont exist and higher stakes.
If I can achieve this I am very likely to buy a house out there, however I am debating whether or not to go to Thailand just after I get back and see what I get for my money there and how they live because if I can get a nice chunk of land out there and get an amazing house built for virtually the same if not less then I may move out there instead. Also depends on how stable the internet is.
Anyway's 3:50am now and trying my best to get some sleep which is why I am on here chatting shit :) Hopefully up earlier tomorrow, a quick day on the poker and then see what the weather is like for golf.
Oh and I want my fucking car back you bastards, over 2 weeks now no car. When I get it back its getting part exchanged for a nice reliable German car!
Saturday 4 July 2009
Sleep - The best cure for tilt
Once again had a little tilt session today, nothing major but I could have lost loads more. Woke up at 5:30am quickly went $200 up and was in 2 games $110 and $55. If I had won them I would have been up $530, instead I lost both to outdraws and kinda lost my head. I have a target every day, If I reach $250 I withdraw and go out and do something unless I reached that target in like 30 mins then I will carry on for a bit more. Then after I have done something if I feel alert and up for it I will play some more and target another $250.
Anyways from being $200 up and possibly $550 I end up $500 down and after just 3 hours of being awake I am tired again so I think fuck it and went back to bed. Woke up at 2pm and won the $500 back in about an hour and now have just quit being $300 up plus I cleared the $150 iron man bonus so have withdrew $450 today.
This is twice now I have felt tired playing, lost and tilted and twice I have got my head down, woke up and won it back pretty quickly. I advise people to give it a try, I know its hard when your chasing your money back but it really helps to clear your head. Anyway after my first tilt session going $950 down I am now after 2 days $1200 up so well on course for my $10k monthly target.
St Gallen in 10 days and I have still got to book my train tickets for when I arrive in Geneva. 4 hours on a Swiss train should be fun :) Just paid for my mate to come with me too because hes skint at the moment and could do with a holiday and paid for a few of the lads to go into the airport lounge also so its going to be a messy long day a week Tuesday.
Roll on Florida 74 days, 16 hrs, 24 mins until your next flight with us...
Anyways from being $200 up and possibly $550 I end up $500 down and after just 3 hours of being awake I am tired again so I think fuck it and went back to bed. Woke up at 2pm and won the $500 back in about an hour and now have just quit being $300 up plus I cleared the $150 iron man bonus so have withdrew $450 today.
This is twice now I have felt tired playing, lost and tilted and twice I have got my head down, woke up and won it back pretty quickly. I advise people to give it a try, I know its hard when your chasing your money back but it really helps to clear your head. Anyway after my first tilt session going $950 down I am now after 2 days $1200 up so well on course for my $10k monthly target.
St Gallen in 10 days and I have still got to book my train tickets for when I arrive in Geneva. 4 hours on a Swiss train should be fun :) Just paid for my mate to come with me too because hes skint at the moment and could do with a holiday and paid for a few of the lads to go into the airport lounge also so its going to be a messy long day a week Tuesday.
Roll on Florida 74 days, 16 hrs, 24 mins until your next flight with us...
Friday 3 July 2009
It just goes to show.......
If you keep your head in this game and can handle the swings you can't really lose. Usually last night I would have carried on till I was broke, deposited more then lost even more. A few hours kip and my head sorting out and I get it back pretty easy + 200 more.
I may have this game cracked but......
That doesn't protect me against fucktard fish cunts.
What a long day, got up early (1pm) and went straight to golf. Played ok could have done better any ways as it was scorching hot I went into the bar and had some magners with ice and pie chips and gravy (proper northerner me).
Get back home and feel fucked from the sun, have another magners and decide to try and make a quick few dollars and hit the sack (6pm lol). An hour later I am $1000 down, $900 of it all to 1 fish who actually on sharkscope has a bowl next to his name.
Anything that could have went wrong did. Lost overs to pocket pairs, pocket pairs to overs, open ended straight and flush draws vs 1 pair and he held and the final straw that sent me over the edge was AA vs 22 with him flopping a set but also giving me the flush draw and I never hit.
Anyways not wanting to deposit I leave my account with $120 in and go to sleep. Wake up at about midnight and start grinding away. A few hours later I have about 500 back so I go over to tescos and do some shopping at half 4 in the morning lol. Stock up on junk food and then get back on the poker. I end up $50 down and play another fish bowl who beats me 4-0 so now I am down $450 again and fuming. I ended up winning 8-0 vs some french donk in $55 hu games so ended up the night about $50 down and I am happy with that.
Got an ironman bonus of $175 to aim for (gutted I didnt start from Jan would have been 600) and I am half way there, rakeback today so from one minute looking like I am about to deposit to the next looking like I will be making a withdrawal. Managed not to punch anything during that mini tilt session, I usually either punch the bed headrest or my table but my hands cant take much more of it.
Anyway's time for some more sleep, just had Animal on msn feeling sorry for himself being hung over and missed his flight loool. Find it hard to give sympathy for anyone whos in vegas and hungover and having to stay longer whilst I am stuck in the UK - LUCKY FISH!
On another note thank fuck for aircon. I bought an industrial sized aircon unit last year and we had probably one of the worst summers ever and I never got much use out of it. Its made up for it this year though, my room is like an icebox where as the rest of the house is like a sauna. I feel sorry for anyone without aircon trying to sleep in this - invest in a portable unit, you wont regret it.
Laters bitches
What a long day, got up early (1pm) and went straight to golf. Played ok could have done better any ways as it was scorching hot I went into the bar and had some magners with ice and pie chips and gravy (proper northerner me).
Get back home and feel fucked from the sun, have another magners and decide to try and make a quick few dollars and hit the sack (6pm lol). An hour later I am $1000 down, $900 of it all to 1 fish who actually on sharkscope has a bowl next to his name.
Anything that could have went wrong did. Lost overs to pocket pairs, pocket pairs to overs, open ended straight and flush draws vs 1 pair and he held and the final straw that sent me over the edge was AA vs 22 with him flopping a set but also giving me the flush draw and I never hit.
Anyways not wanting to deposit I leave my account with $120 in and go to sleep. Wake up at about midnight and start grinding away. A few hours later I have about 500 back so I go over to tescos and do some shopping at half 4 in the morning lol. Stock up on junk food and then get back on the poker. I end up $50 down and play another fish bowl who beats me 4-0 so now I am down $450 again and fuming. I ended up winning 8-0 vs some french donk in $55 hu games so ended up the night about $50 down and I am happy with that.
Got an ironman bonus of $175 to aim for (gutted I didnt start from Jan would have been 600) and I am half way there, rakeback today so from one minute looking like I am about to deposit to the next looking like I will be making a withdrawal. Managed not to punch anything during that mini tilt session, I usually either punch the bed headrest or my table but my hands cant take much more of it.
Anyway's time for some more sleep, just had Animal on msn feeling sorry for himself being hung over and missed his flight loool. Find it hard to give sympathy for anyone whos in vegas and hungover and having to stay longer whilst I am stuck in the UK - LUCKY FISH!
On another note thank fuck for aircon. I bought an industrial sized aircon unit last year and we had probably one of the worst summers ever and I never got much use out of it. Its made up for it this year though, my room is like an icebox where as the rest of the house is like a sauna. I feel sorry for anyone without aircon trying to sleep in this - invest in a portable unit, you wont regret it.
Laters bitches
Thursday 2 July 2009
End of month review
I feel I have finally cracked it as I have changed a few things and I haven't had a losing day since, in fact everyday has been a winning day apart from 1 break even day. Finished over $9000 up for the month even though I had a horrible tilt session which cost me £4000 and I ended up taking about 4 days off because of it.
My target for this month is to reach $10,000 or more but it may be tricky considering I will be spending 3 days in Switzerland on the piss watching Liverpool and I dont know weather to take my laptop with me or not. Plus I want to play a lot more golf this month, slowly getting the hang of it but I have bruised my ribs which could slow things up a bit :(
Anyway time for bed have to be up early to play golf tomorrow and then hopefully my car will be out the garage :( had nothing but problems since I bought the bloody thing.
Roll on St Gallen and Florida!
My target for this month is to reach $10,000 or more but it may be tricky considering I will be spending 3 days in Switzerland on the piss watching Liverpool and I dont know weather to take my laptop with me or not. Plus I want to play a lot more golf this month, slowly getting the hang of it but I have bruised my ribs which could slow things up a bit :(
Anyway time for bed have to be up early to play golf tomorrow and then hopefully my car will be out the garage :( had nothing but problems since I bought the bloody thing.
Roll on St Gallen and Florida!
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